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Brave or attention seeking ?

Everything's new and so do i , I have been constantly trying to make everyday in this year count and I think I am making a good progress but IDK if it's worth it . 
I was posted in Picu with haripriya , she's nice and a good friend , not close one yet . 
And there's Divya , I kinda started to hate and have decreased respect for her nowadays. Once I got out of her aura , she went back to looking mid, and she's def not a one for me. 
Speaking of one for me, I have been recently talking to jenita ( Bot )… I kinda think she's cute and pleasant. We started talking on Instagram when I found out that she likes to go around places cycling and like to trek and hike (* as she said)… and recently a night she told let's go for a walk and talk. I was so down… I rushed and picked her from Fitch and went to burger shop. It was close so we came back to Jeevan and I got her a KitKat and came inside campus and found a place to sit. I was talking till 11pm, and she went to hostel. On my way, I found Richard leading his girl into campus. 
The next day, I doubtfully asked her to go to amirthi with me. She accepted, I can't believe and don't know what's happening. Maybe she's into me, or she thinks she found a good friend to hang out with. Whatever this is. I just want it to end it without hurting each other. 
Rahul bought a new bike, it's pretty cool… It's making me think about getting a Bike during my bond period…sure, I will get a X pulse fr or any best adventure tourer at that time.
We CCT went to college hill , around 14 showed up. It was fun and cool. But I found myself being overexcited and separate and doing crazy shit to please people and taking picture for some reason instead of enjoying the hill. I should work on that , possibly my low esteem shit is kicking in and doing all this shit. 

I should control my behavior and my words ( I am speaking like a fish seller from Chennai )… Moderation in content and everything I do.


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