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 Dec 1 2024 

tech is advancing so exponentially compared to me in school and college. People don't talk to one another in bus, don't discuss new idea and random thoughts to people nearby when they're bored. Instead, they scroll up shorts and reels and blame and call the people lame who does share their thoughts. But they're (everyone) is not to blame. In a generation of people adapting personality from fictional characters and influencers, I see everyone (including me) as a mindless victim. 

I have had enough ass kicks from people and my own ideas on people and reality around me. This makes me thinks to redo everything once again. 

A major reset of ideas, things I do, perspective of people I have, hobbies and every damn things. 

I am already quite (like 10%) there…. 
        * I am starting to work out and started sprint training, for which I went up to many people (random akka in oval who might be a coach, Pts and OT's in my hostel and this also helps me with my social skills). I also tried to sprint 100m and time it with Rahul. I got 15sec, which maybe fast for newbies, but I aim to reach 12 or 13 by the end of 2nd year (if I am alive and don't get adheolysis again).  

WHY START RUNNING ?

I could be a normal cycling guy and laptop banger and studious in my 2nd year journey. But, one fine dinner in hostel triggered me to push myself out of my comfort zone (even if it results in dead). I.e. MADHAVAN. Person who I thought is cool and wholesome, turned his back to me and spending all his time near me to troll and show hatred against me. That night, we all were planning to play kabadi in Eden. 
And I asked could I join, and he was like “Disabled people are not allowed” he might have joking, but I realized he meant it when he used that context again as a defensive mechanism. That's when I realized, no matter how caring and cool a person behaves. One day, he or she is going to turn their back on me, So now what I could do is..... destroy myself and my disabilities (which is I had a surgery and having intense physical activity will kill me). 

QUITE THERE.........

I went up to every doctor I can see in search of books and knowledge for my 2nd year. And I did get good answers and bad answers, which I have to compile and make the best guide for 2nd year. 

After 1 unfortunate year, I saw RAJIV sir's insta profile (that's the exact words I said to him) and god damnnnnnnnn it's mind-blowing and makes me realize what is the difference between “what's your career” and “what you want to do with your life”. He's an amazing bird photographer (better my Machan sirager). 
He came to oval for playing cricket, I met him there and asked him to include me in two things he do 
1) cricket, becoz I don't know any sports and want to get started with any. 2)trekking and bird sighting, he told me he will go to Amirthi soon and call me with him too, let's see how that going to go.


Well, I guess that's it. An end of beginning… End of normal, talkative, cycle guy and a beginning of an intense no BS, guy with pain.

I am here writing this long ass blog with claves, elbow, shoulder, and neck cramp (neck becoz jithu Anna taught me stretching for first time)…, but I would go running again tomorrow despite pain, rain, and cramps. Becoz, It's not the body and people that demands me to do all shit now. It's the words they said and mind… ☠




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