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Too much for a week

 All started by getting newspapers for DJ hostel day . we went to doctors quarters ( sunset avenue ) me , sanay and sumen were a group and we went like two floors ( 8+ houses ) and collected a decent amount of newspapers . we continued this for two days , going new places , south road , round road , etc.....

Then we started our search for the cardboards , which will be collected from solid waste management of cmc which is like 200 metre from our hostel . but it is easy said then done . We carried  literally a tons of cardboards by group of six, five and many …. in the end of the day, we all were super tired and filled the chapel bay with mountains of newspaper and cardboards . 

Work for the hostel day started with segregating newspapers and cardboard and putting them into the tv room ( we officially got into tv room ) , next day we have to stich the cardboards to a specific size thus it will be useful for the main project , btw i am in the deco committee and i was not selected to be any in charge which is awful as it sounds . 

I gave blood for the first time in my life and it came with a lot of backages, for starters , now my whole family wont talk to me , don't pay my mess fees. they are all angry on me . life doesn't feel normal anymore . 

I have lot of work to do, still i am playing free fire or scrolling Instagram , my foster got a pretty bad breakup , my parents don't talk to me , i lost my iron box , my academics and posting knowledge is shit 

I lost everything i had, while working for hostel day I came to realise, i am not someone who can mingle with people , worst , i make them mad . 

My course mates barely like me too . I cant change my behaviours because i dont know what it is that make me repeling from others , 

Days are going unscheduled, nothing's constant , i want to study for university exams , but sitting here writing a blog , traumatized about what happening to my life . 

 today i woke up at 7:15am had to call rajiv sir to say we ( savi and me ) cant come to nicu , called sam sir , but sam sir told to go to nicu in later bus. guess what , we did go to ranipet but what time ?
fking 8:55 am and we had to catch a bus at 9am for physiology class . we went to icu told rajiv sir and came to bus . 

People who i tougth are dumber  are overheading me academically . 
I plan to workout , but cant even wake up in the morning , I am totally trashed and completely down and God knows when i will be back on my track , because all the tries i took for putting me back on track only pulled me back to dumb version of me 




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