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Out of the loop

 wherever i go , whoever people i am with , whatever i do . i am pulled back to this state of depression , low self esteem and addictive state. Maybe it's because of my overthinking , maybe it's my gadgets . or maybe it's me . 

I have to decide something immediately , i cannot be in this endless loop , this will destroy my life goals as it done with the neet thing already . 

I have to make a whole schedule again and stick to the things that make me better and wash out things ruining me . smartphone use....i have to embrace boredom and get the shit done . 


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