My Life in CMC

 wherever i go , whoever people i am with , whatever i do . i am pulled back to this state of depression , low self esteem and addictive state. Maybe it's because of my overthinking , maybe it's my gadgets . or maybe it's me .  I have to decide something immediately , i cannot be in this endless loop , this will destroy my life goals as it done with the neet thing already .  I have to make a whole schedule again and stick to the things that make me better and wash out things ruining me . smartphone use....i have to embrace boredom and get the shit done . 

 All started by getting newspapers for DJ hostel day . we went to doctors quarters ( sunset avenue ) me , sanay and sumen were a group and we went like two floors ( 8+ houses ) and collected a decent amount of newspapers . we continued this for two days , going new places , south road , round road , etc..... Then we started our search for the cardboards , which will be collected from solid waste management of cmc which is like 200 metre from our hostel . but it is easy said then done . We carried  literally a tons of cardboards by group of six, five and many …. in the end of the day, we all were super tired and filled the chapel bay with mountains of newspaper and cardboards .  Work for the hostel day started with segregating newspapers and cardboard and putting them into the tv room ( we officially got into tv room ) , next day we have to stich the cardboards to a specific size thus it will be useful for the main project , btw i am in the deco committee and i was not sel...

 It's been more then 7months and I can't believe how much I have proliferated my character and knowledge.  I went to all the ICUs , should know every basic things about the course...so do I ? , That's an answer even I don't know.  Hostel went from a hell filled with people waiting to extract your happiness by shooting questions and tasks to an place where fun and people who are the sources of fun ( 2020 ) is in non existence anymore . I cant believe how i got the interest in this course , neither do I know how that interest got numb and i am just doing it as my daily life with no purpose or excitement . I am close with most of my roommates , I like madhavan the most ( not gay ) anshel is doubtfull bitch and akshit is a cool dude and my asha companion . sunny is there and nice. and jairus ( a bitch , like his brother ) .  I cant get along with that mf I tried.  Many unforgettable things happen in these 7 months. I went to chennai trip with friends . Haripriya ( m...