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Realisation

25/9/2023 , Day 7 in CMC and DJ

 Purpose , something I been searching for a long time or thought I perceived . or did I ?

I been asking this question to myself for a long while from the day I got selected in cmc but not 

satisfied with the course itself and didn't released what i am going to perceive in here. 

After the ass cracking and cold two days of orientation  , we got splinted into our courses and 

our life in college really started and what happened ??

We got ourselves the course orientation , I wont exclude the hostel orientation....wait....

I am in BSc critical care technology , so I was shown all the ICUs , stockroom and our lounge .

Me before the orientation is a mf who had a plan to learn code and get a software job and live 

life as a cold mf with money and girl like Andrew Tate or something .

So what did I become after a orientation ?? , I become the real me , the one i lost for few year 

due to bad habits and bad connections . I realised this world , those people in ICU , those 

children in PICU , and everyone in a critical state don't want me , They Need me .

When these much people are in need and in a state I was last year ( pain and suffering ) .

I ain't sitting in a chair and hitting the keyboard and living my fake purposed life called 

programmer or any shit . 

I am a critical care therapist and from now on , it's my lifestyle , my purpose and the reason I 

breath , eat …..

Hostel

First day in hostel , normal and simple , no worries , No problem , Life is good .

But as the day passes , so did the seniors plans did . 

We got ourselves a orientation for the hostel to explain the rules and activities we have. 

To be honest , it's good and seniors seems helpful . and we came to know that Tony Anna is 

the power hand of the hostel ( he do ) .

Then the seniors part---> we are not allowed to ask their name or course , The weird 

so called logic is that if we put a effort and find their name , they think we would remember it 

a lot longer and feel like deserve it . To be honest , it really feel like "Yeah it's a good idea and good reason to not say the name " , but is it though ? yes ,it is


 








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