My Life in CMC

 This year was so long for me. New people , new experience, fearful experience, new adventures, gaining people , losing people, confessing to people .....phew !  But the one thing I wanna take from this year is that I was not upto my potentials. I can get the best physique if I train everyday. I can top the whole class if I study everyday. And mainly I can concentrate on my life if I quit all my distractions.  All the wonders are there and wall for those achievements is me and my mindset. The last month ( December ) was an shittest month of the year. I went to an unwanted so called try for another relationship and had to come out of it in a hard way. But I have learnt my lesson.  This new year, it's time to cut every single distraction I have. I know it's much and much harder then it sounds. But I am 19 next year and it's time to man up.  New plan for the new year  * Workout everyday  * Go on a adventure every Sunday  * Talk to everyone and make n...

 A shit ton of stuff happen around.  Firstly , the Christmas party , we ( cct ) prepared for two icu's and performed very delightful with same dance.  And there's a whole Avengers level of drama happen to my life with Divya .  I asked her out. Yeah, I got guts to ask out a girl for the first time in my life. I didn't even asked out qua, atleast not irl.  All this started by me having a little crush on her starting from I don't really know when.  And gradually that increased and one day I made Vishal to ask her about what will she do if I ( thameem ) have crush on her [ a classic one ] . She told him that she have no problem. That's my green signal. So the next day I made some stuff to be in MICU where she is posted. I asked her out in MICU saying I had a crush on her and what's her thoughts on it.  She replied "I really would have accepted your proposal if u have asked me out in the first year. But now....now I am not interested in loving anyone." And ...

My mind is foggy and focused at the same time now.  Firstly, we are getting started with second year by having ICU monitoring class, and it was really simple and not so professional as I thought it would, it just felt like one of those procedural classes we had in 1st year. To add more of that feeling the TV doesn't work and we (boys) had to do some lifting to fix, still we couldn't have it working.  In the late class, there was a talk (because of my cue) for the second year class, which ended with a more overwhelming decision ------> Me as a CR. I was given (or bombarded) with the post for this year, and I don't know what to do with this. I have to control myself and my decision not only for me now, but for my whole tribe.  My sprint training is going on it's time, but I think I am putting all my post dept time in Running, Running and only running… I have to prep a schedule and incorporate working out, running, and academics to have everything perfectly balanced. In...