My Life in CMC

 Dec 1 2024  tech is advancing so exponentially compared to me in school and college. People don't talk to one another in bus, don't discuss new idea and random thoughts to people nearby when they're bored. Instead, they scroll up shorts and reels and blame and call the people lame who does share their thoughts. But they're (everyone) is not to blame. In a generation of people adapting personality from fictional characters and influencers, I see everyone (including me) as a mindless victim.  I have had enough ass kicks from people and my own ideas on people and reality around me. This makes me thinks to redo everything once again.  A major reset of ideas, things I do, perspective of people I have, hobbies and every damn things.  I am already quite (like 10%) there….           * I am starting to work out and started sprint training, for which I went up to many people (random akka in oval who might be a coach, Pts and OT's in my hoste...

 I am writing this in the middle of a university exam preparation which is ofc going as shit as possible due to multiple variables, but that's not the context now  the thing is ….. Everything is going to be new in my life.  For starters, I am getting a NEW PHONE,  and a new room and new academic year with many possibilities. This is going to be fire if I utilize this proply   * NEW PHONE  so, I went to oval to check my running abilities and find a place to work out, ngl, that worked out great. But the only thing that got fucked is my phone. I dropped it in the sand and after all this year's. It got a screen issue. I told this to mom and dad (ofc). They surprisingly told to look for a new phone [inner peace]. I thought they won't get me a new phone, so I sent them chumma new okish phones.  But, mom called and was like, confirm ah, this phone ??? . I got shocked, I realized this is a real thing. So I took a moment and chosen CMF Phone (1). Pretty g...

 I have come to the point to be all eligible to take the batman persona. I have 0 close friends, 0 people to love, 0 people to show off. Now it's just me, my parents and my life (just like it always been). After leave the neet plan, I have left undisciplined and crazy that I even started improving crush on people which is cringe and unproductive.  So..... After all this, here I am, totally retarded with no mental belief for the exam and finding excuses to do stuff. This need to need, but it can't end by itself. I have to become an unseen version of myself. This will include being mindful about what I do every single second, which is going to be hard and anxious, but I did this to myself. So no going back. From tomorrow…. 3/Nov/2024 I am constantly focused on the near goal, and also working towards long time goals, which is getting ripped and mental peace. No junk food or junk content going into me by my eyes or mount or ears.  Limiting screen time to what only necessary. ...